Depending on...

Today I must admit, I've been thinking about our Baby a lot. Will it be a boy or a girl?  What will he/she look like?  How old will he/she be when we first see him/her?  How will John Daniel react?  Will I feel like I 'missed" something since there were no pregnancy or labor?

So many thoughts....yet....we wait.  This week Beth Moore tweeted this picture/verse....

This is what I cling to when my thoughts are heavy and the hole where this child belongs feels large.  "Settle down in complete dependence on me"...wow, what does that even look like?  The vast concept of COMPLETE DEPENDENCE can only remind me of a infant's complete dependence on his parents.  Oh the full circle of thought....

The other part that stings is 'stop your silly efforts...'  Although this verse is talking about our salvation and how we can only receive it from Him, I can't help but think about how much He might be looking down and be thinking that the same of me with my eagerness to be a family of 5 (Zeke included).  Some days I KNOW He leads me to work for our adoption process and others He stops me in my tracks and says....your silly efforts....!

As I reflect on the heart of this post, I mainly see and hope for our COMPLETE DEPENDENCE on HIM for ALL THINGS....salvation, joy, peace and a family of 5!